Had lunch with J o h n E . Couldn't bring myself to ask him for money though we had siscussed it before I left. I have a hard time with funders. But of course I was more keen on having him know who I was and what it was Itrying to do. And not to come across too hungry. Plus the ecent distasteful experience with J o s h.

Still I think what he does with Laos and Cambodia is good but runof the mill Birkenstockism. And he was alarmed by what i tols him - attracted to the ideas but perhaps lacking a little personal courage? I hae to call him. Perhaps his bro will like the little baseball film I made since he is doing his dissert on baseball in Cuba.

What I am trying to do is soooo difficult.